CeritaNyo

Saat kita suka sesuatu atau seseorang sedikit lebih banyak, kita kadang ngerasain kind of sparks of joy di dalam hati, kan? Tapi, sayangnya, kadang-kadang perasaan itu redup, atau bahkan ilang gitu aja. Terus, kalo udah kayak gitu, efeknya jadi males ngejalanin apa yang dulu kita suka, jadi enggak yakin sama diri sendiri, atau mau berenti aja. Dulu, gue enggak tau gimana cara ngembaliinnya. Tapi, sekarang gue tau. Gue enggak tau sih cara ini bakal berhasil buat orang lain juga atau enggak, but at least it works for me . Sparks yang pernah gue rasain selalu balik saat gue ketemu sama orang-orang sebidang yang inspiratif dan passionate abis. Passion mereka tuh kayak sampe dan nyentil gue. Dalam kasus gue, mereka-mereka ini kebanyakan senior, umurnya udah seumuran sama ibu bapak gue, bahkan ada yang lebih tua dari nenek gue. Tapi, mereka masih semangat banget. Gue malu. Cara pikir dan semangatnya mereka tuh selalu nular ke gue. Makanya, setiap kali ada kesempatan buat ketemu dalam seminar...

I read a very good sentence written on a sticker, "if you want to be happy, you have to wake up with the intention to be happy". So i did. It's been a week since i started that thing. I really hope it can be my new habit because it helps me a lot. If i wake up with positive mind, i can finish the day easily without too much worry. You can try by yourself if you want to feel that too. After doing what the sticker says, i can process everything one by one. I can--slowly--reduce my overthinking habit. I feel a little bit happier. That's ok. Everything start from a little bit anyway. I've been doing good now, fortunately. I will keep doing good for myself and other people around me. I don't want them to keep reading and listening my complaints over and over again. It's nice to spread positivity, right? Then, i also trying to feel enough of myself. I'm trying to stop being greedy in life. I will do whatever it is one by one. I know everyone is struggling in...

Someday, i think my life is a whole mess. The other day, i think my life is a blessed. Someday, i think myself is not more than just a garbage. The other day, i think myself is amazing af. Someday, i think life is so cruel. No one wants to be my friend. Nothing works well as i expected it to be. Nothing run well in my life. I complained too much about it. I spent time stressing over it. I'm busy doing every single things except my responsibilities. I'm talking too much about how cruel this life to me. But, then, when my mind is clear enough to think, i realized that's just how the world works. It's not life that did dirty to me. Everything that happens in my life is just how the world works. I should not complain too much about how my life goes on. I should learn how to overcome life to survive. Not everything went well so that i can learn from the failure. Not everyone can help me anytime so that i know i have to do most things by myself. I know that i have to do what ...

Komunikasi sama orang lain itu penting. Seenggaknya, kita bisa tau kalo orang lain juga struggling sama kehidupannya. Seenggaknya, kita jadi enggak ngerasa kesusahan sendiri. "Oh, dia juga ngerasain hal yang sama kayak gue." "Ternyata, kehidupan dia juga enggak semudah keliatannya, ya." Semua orang struggling sama kehidupan. Kita paham, kita tau, tapi kalo kita enggak komunikasi, enggak ngobrol, kita enggak akan tau kalo orang-orang itu beneran struggling. Itu bukan cuma kalimat kosong yang enggak ada perwujudannya. Everyone are struggling too. Jadi, ya udah... take it easy. Cukup lakuin yang terbaik. Jangan kebanyakan pikiran. Lakuin yang harus dilakuin. Pikirin yang harus dipikirin. Hidup kamu itu masih panjang. Jangan dipake untuk mikir yang enggak-enggak. Kamu pasti bisa. You will get better. You will get better. You will get better. You did great. You did great. You did great. You will be stronger, step by step, day by day.

"Enggak kuat." "Kenapa sih gue harus milih ini?" "Kok sesusah ini, sih?" "Capek." "Mau berenti." Pernah punya pikiran kayak gitu? Enggak apa-apa, enggak apa-apa punya pikiran kayak gitu. Manusiawi. Kalo capek, ya istirahat. Sebisa mungkin jangan berenti. Kecuali kalo udah bener-bener enggak kuat. Batasan diri sendiri itu kita yang tahu. Mau orang bilang, "hang in there!" "you got this!" dan sepuluh ribu kalimat baik lainnya, kalo kita udah enggak ngerasa kuat, berenti itu boleh. Sebaliknya, mau orang bilang, "ya udah, berenti aja." "lakuin yang lain aja." dan seratus kalimat dukungan berenti lainnya, kalo kita masih kuat, ya jangan berenti. Satu-satunya orang yang berhak nentuin berenti atau enggak itu, adanya di cermin. Kalo udah waktunya mutusin, berdiri di depan cermin, tanya, "apa ini udah waktunya berenti?"

"You've done a good job." "You're great enough." "Thank you for your hard work." "Thank you for not giving up." Those sentences are so powerful. You'll cry a river when you hear that while you're having a hard time. Cause i did. I don't care who said that to me. Even when a stranger i met in train said it, it will feel so meaningful for me, at least when i'm having a tiring day. But, you know, it's kinda hard to hope people will say those things. The best thing you can do is stand in front of mirror and say, "You are enough."

Akhir-akhir ini, sering kepikiran sama apa yang ada di judul. Mau ngeluh aja banyak banget pertimbangannya. Padahal, ngeluh itu manusiawi, biasa. Mau ngeluh, tapi nanti dijudge orang. Mau ngeluh, tapi malu ah, masih banyak yang bebannya lebih berat. Mau ngeluh, tapi nanti enggak ada yang peduli juga. Mau ngeluh, tapi nanti enggak ditanggepin. Terus, sampe tapi-tapi lainnya. Makin ke sini kita cenderung lebih peduli sama respons orang daripada sama perasaan sendiri. Padahal, ngeluh itu ya boleh. Mau update di sosial media isinya ngeluh 24/7 juga silakan. Yang perlu diinget itu, ngeluh bukan buat cari perhatian atau tanggepan orang lain. Menurut gue, ngeluh itu lebih ke ngelepas beban dari diri sendiri aja. Bukan untuk ditanggepin orang. Kita boleh ngeluh, tapi mereka yang baca atau dengerin keluhan kita juga boleh enggak peduli dan enggak nanggepin. *** These past days was so hard, but i know i'll make it. I hope i'll doing just fine. I hope you guys doing just fine, too.